Many little things happened this past week that I am trying not take personally. At both my FIL and MIL passing there were cards, flowers, food, and lots of help. I was so deeply touched for there was so much. With my own father only Alanna brought food, just 1 card, no flowers, the Jehovah Witnesses were the only ones to show up at my door :( and I begged for help. Not only did I lose my father but when neighbors and friends did not show up to my own father’s funeral, but they did for my FIL 6 months ago, I have to question why and wonder if it’s me.
Part of this does have to do with a brother and SIL who recently have taken on an extreme case of “holier-than-thou” attitude. They preached to me that this lack of response from family and friends is God is trying to tell me something. So what is God trying to tell me? 1. My brother and SIL are a$$holes and they can take care of my mother when she become frail, for they don’t have a clue as to how hard it is or how to help someone.
It also doesn’t help that just last night a dear friend of mine, lost her son in a car accident. Her daughter was handicapped like Tommy but she passed at the age of 12. This was her only other child. I just don’t need this at this time.
2 comments:
Okay so this is just my take on faith, and I'm no priest (or saint by any means) but this is what I believe:
God isn't vindictive and doesn't punish people with sad times, even though sometimes it feels like it. I think the opposite is actually true, and those that get dumped on the most are the ones that he knows can take it, and are actually the strongest.
And those that are actually 'good Christians' don't tell other people that God is getting back at them, b/c that theory pretty much goes against every teaching in the church....so tell the brother and SIL to put that in their pipe and smoke it!
Sorry to get all super-religious, but I did grow up in Fremont, and you can take a girl out of the super-religious dutch town, but you can't take the super religious dutch town out of the girl:)
Hang in there, and know that your committment to your family is admired.
Hugs from afar. I'm sorry that you're dealing with this alone. I wish I was closer to offer a helping hand.
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